Feel the Fear & Do it Anyway

21 November 2009

Just got back from marine parade with my mum , got a few pieces of winter clothing . Am leaving the country in one and a half weeks :D wa wa we wa nice nice

Mum got me my DSLR TODAY ! HAHAHAHAHAHHA ! FINALLY . QUALITY PICTURES . SO ! Expect more pictures to be updated soon :D

Will try to update this space tonight with pictures am still figuring out the whole camera and i need to pack my room . SO , i may not have time for updates !

Am gonna play Tennis with sebas and daryl at S’s country club tommorow morning , WILL TRY AND TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES TO UPDATE ! <3

My parents have been listening to fireflies by owlcity ! HAHAH HOW COOL IS THAT !?

On a side note : I like the people i like and im really nice to them and i will do anything for them , But to people i dont like . . well i treat them like shit , literally fuck worthless pieces of shit , and its kind of hard for me to hate someone . SO … YEAH , and right now i only hate one prick .

PPEEEAACEE

TO the one and only prick , that stands alone :

I wake up every evening
With a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place.
And you’re still probably working
At a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell

Now where’s your picket fence love
And where’s that shiny car
Did it ever get you far?
You never seem so tense, love
Never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are?

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I’m lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man thats worth the damn and treats you well
Then he’s a fool you’re just as well hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you hear this song and you sing along well you’ll never tell
And you’re the fool I’ve just as well I hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along I hope that it puts you through hell

19 November 2009 III

I need to reply you .

# 1 - I think you have fail ur plan ( is supposed to be ) I think you have failed in you plan ( because have = past tense , and therefore you have to have an ED behind )

#2 - Laughing at a childish and stupid fat joker ( i can totally imagine you staring at a stupid fat joker and laughing , btw , whats a joker ? no such word )

#3 - and i felt happy to see you getting so agitated and angry. . Look so ________. ( fill in the blank urself ) . First of all , you remember how i look ? wtf ? when have i seen you ? or looked at you ? or get angry at you ? you imagining things in your mind . Or you plain stupid ? you felt happy . Omg , evil :O

#4 - You have a very small brain , seriously ( btw , brain size does not amount to the brain’s ability or capacity . well  . . Just thought you should know ? okay , btw wrong use of the english language again )

#5 - Let me tell you ( what ? that you failed everything ? we all know that , you are in no position to tell me anything , considering your status )

#6 - For me is a free show .. an entertainment i should say ( right free shows are entertainmentto you , cause you’re poor and you’re a cheapo . ENJOY , you’re the star ! again , an entertaiment so to say , not i should say )

#7 - I’m not the loser ..is you ( BWAHAHA . Wtf ? i’m not the loser is you , does it sound wrong AT ALL ? You got your fact wrong and its supposed to be , im not the loser you are . )

#8 - You are the most fucking big loser on earth ( when you say most , you have to add the biggest term for it , tallest , fattest , ugliest , not fucking big loser , its biggest . And when you refer to the earth , you have to add a THE , THE earth you dont refer it to EARTH unless you mean literally soil and ground . And how would you know ? for all we know now your english is bullshit , you didnt pass anything and you’re  … well its all stated in 19 nov part 1 )

#9 - If i’m flirt den what is you now ? ( right , i really dont understand this . Ive never called you a flirt , i said you like grinding poles , do you think you’re a flirt ? and den is THAN and what is you now is fucking outta the question )

#10 - i’m lazy to quarrel with people like you ( yeah , you shouldnt have , you’re embarrasing yourself . No wait , im doing that for you now (: since you’re lazy and all )

#11 - Small brain , nonsense and stupid in the way you act. Can you like move on to a higher level ? I pity you sia ( … what a matured , structured sentence . you rock ! can you like move on to a higher level . And that would be ? right now , you need to move , but you’ve kinda maxed out , so . . you’re stuck . i pity you sia ? pity what that ive got a dining table my mum pays for my chalets and that i have a chew toy ? )

#12 - Oh ya. . and you told someone to talk bad about me infront of him. WOW , how despicable you are ( since when ? and who ? if i wanted to , i would do it myself . Trust me , i will go up and do it myself if i wanted something done . unlike you , worthless little piece of shit . WOW , how despicable you are . Next time dont use big words if you cant get simple sentence structure right cause it only shows how much you’re trying . Get it ? okay , and you sound like YODA from starwars . Ohhhh how despicable you are young jedi )

#13 - But the plan failed.  ( which ? making you talk ? showing how stupid you are ? you telling people thatim very funny and im a joker and you like laughing at me or showing how fucked up your english is ? which is it ? )

#14 - Hahahaha. So boring . Remember this. . it is not going to affect me in anyway , not even that no link secret (: and you are still _______. HAHAHAHA (: ( it doesnt need to , cause after this , everyone knows your english suck and you aint gonna pass O levels AGAIN . or get 16 points , your no link secret … what is a no link secret ? your secret is out , you think i would really do you the honour for keeping it in ? hell no , if i hate you i will fucking take you down , all the guys in the school know , hell guys outside know , you’re good for grinding and blowing . No link secret ? your boobs no link secret . wtf ? not even that no link secret ? wtf is that . You now you’re one of the most popular girls the boys talk about when they comment on boobs , asses and sluttiness , i know , firsthand . And i know , i know , im brilliant , im a bitch to you which i love being , and awesome and better DEN you . I know , all can do do is laugh it off and end it with a smile . )

_|_ my heart shatter into million piece , HAI , watertap non stop lerh , that day quarrel , i walk in rain almost got bang down , not sure what doctor gonna say to me , hai i wish i not so weak  , i wish i can be a normal person lerh . Sigh . I miss my deardear .

HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAAHAHAAHHHHAH _|_

19 November 2009 II

I felt kind of bad posting all those mean stuff , but . .  you suck . So i dont care , i asked 5 people who’ve read about what they think , they said its okay and it isnt too much , and one even said that they would do that too . .  to you . HAHA . Who gets the last laugh now loser . I dont feel bad saying stuff like that , because i know i can control my emotions pretty well and i get over stuff pretty fast , but my friends think that you suck and it isnt too much . Do i feel bad ? Neh .

Its nice being home after not being home for so long if you know what i mean . Stayed over at Seb’s with Daryl yesterday , Sebas’s mum brought us out for a midnight movie . We caught Paranormal activity . It was pretty alright , not a relatively scary movie , but it was a video recording . So , it was kinda screwed cause i got very very giddy after abit . Very creepy movie btw . Cause it’s a real life account .

Played the drums and guitar on Wii , slept in the guest room and the guys fell asleep in the living , had lunch with sebas’s mum , stayed in the house , played with belle , watched a movie , surfed the net , bitched about and then we went for dinner and walked back home in the cold cold rain . It was nice .

S’s mum fetched us home at about 7 . I think we’re gonna hang out more before daryl leaves for Shanghai . We’ve been thinking of picking up a third language . How cool is that :D now at least dad’s gonna be happy that im doing something more productive

19 november EDITED

Man , my plan suceeded , you replied ! FINALLY . Holy crap after one year .
C’mon lah ? you think im jealous ? look at you . you have like two pieces of clothing , a pair of 10 dollar heels and god knows what else . You go back home to your three room flat and sit on the floor for dinner . Loser ? was that even english ? WHAT THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO BE JEALOUS ABOUT ? YOUR BOYFRIEND ? YOU FACE ? YOUR FLAT CHEST ? YOUR 10 DOLLAR HEELS ? OR YOUR BIG DINING TABLE . HAHAHHAHA . I’ll always be a loser ? Thats what you think . And you’re obviously wrong about everything . Look at you , there’s nothing you can be proud of . So , you’ve been keeping quiet for the past half year ? HOW TORMENTING FOR YOU . HAHAHAHA . I CAN NAME ALL YOUR FRIENDS THAT TALK TO ME AND TELL ME THEY WALK AWAY WHEN YOU COMPLAIN TO THEM ? WTF ? IF I REALLY WANTED WHATEVER YOU HAVE I COULD . LIKE I SAID , I WILL FUCKING CRUSH YOU . L.O.S.E.R MAYBE YOU SHOULD TRY TYPING IN CHINESE . OH . .  you got a C for chinese ): Studied hard for prelims and you still fucked up . And im the loser . HHAHHAHA . You laugh and laugh , and at what ? HAHAH failing prelims ? or getting a C for chinese ? Or getting guys to buy things for you ? or stuffing tissues up your bra ? or having no dining table ? or having a awesome boyfriend ? or calling people a loser ? or maybe tolerating the whole half a year ? HAHAH . I’ll always be better . face it . I wont deny it . I think im better then you . Oh wait , no no I AM BETTER THEN YOU _|_

I havent affected you ? SERIOUSLY ? YOU’VE BEEN TOLERATING FOR THE WHOLE YEAR . ZOMG ! AND I CANT LET GO ? Puuuuulease . You’re a chew toy . Whats there for me to hold on ? I do whatever pleases me , and you cant do shit

Calling me fat and small brain is such a cowardly DICK move . But im sure you didnt know that . Fat . . fat . . thats something someone in kindergarten would say . OH … OH . .  i get it . .  i get it now . Wait let me give you a kindergarten term , stupid ? you know stupid ? oh and … china . Yeah you look like you work at a coffee shop , you know like china immigrants . Working at a posh , wait its not even posh , okay posh for your standards obviously , isnt gonna change how you are you know ? You’re still the same piece of shit . No time for dogs like you ? Oh yes , you have alot of catching up to do , like getting a dining table . quick , hurry . grind that pole . ANYWAY , YOU’RE getting interesting . I like . And plus you failed in every aspect there is in life , so what makes you think that whatever you says makes an impact ? or that people actually care . dont you get it ? you’re STOOOOPID . Oh im sure you’re very matured cause you got brought up with all the right values , you know being cheap and slutty and all . EDUCATED . AWESOME :)

AHAHA . you’re trying to tell people you dont wanna waste time on me ? what the hell ? you shitting me ? and i have a small brain ? lets see … you wanted to get like 16 points for O’s right ? english = fail , chinese = HAHAH , maths = erm ? fuck off ? , geography = fail ? , what else is there to say . I have a small brain . LAUGH ALL YOU WANT MAN . WE ALL KNOW YOU’RE PUTTING UP A FRONT TO TELL PEOPLE IT DOESNT AFFECT YOU , PLUS YOU’RE NOT SUPPOSED TO TELL PEOPLE THAT IT DOESNT AFFECT YOU , IT ONLY SHOWS HOW MUCH YOU’RE ACTUALLY BOTHERED BY IT . HOW DUMB CAN YOU GET ?! Anw , i bet my readers are used to me bitching about you all the time , it’s kind of a . . relaxing thing for me to do . Like lashing out on you . Calling me a dog . Totally trashy way of talking . LIKE YOU . And who even reads your blog ? people that understand . Like Lians and bengs probably . Oh , its all falling together now . People around me say i cant let go ? you fucking sure ? they know why im doing this . you wanna know ? BECAUSE I CAN AND I WILL . I CAN DO IT . AND THATS WHY I LIKE DOING IT . So you obviously dont have your facts right . Whats new . You cant even talk properly , what in the world is den you is what ? Its than not DEN . HAHAH . and you dont put a verb infront of what . MORON . Plus all of what you’re saying doesnt even make sense . And there is no such thing close to than you is what either . Making sense ? I dont know so .

Love you cutesy . remember (; you’ll never be half as close _|_ I cant deny . I mean , LOOK AT YOU .

I’m so honoured to be your valentines ______ (: ( look familiar ? even though you pushed it right infront . wtf . anw ‘fill in the blanks yourself’ you typed the msg , and it leaked , it ALL leaked ) HHAHAHAH . WE ALL KNOW

I bet you arent affected by this AT ALL .

( i am generally a nice person  I swear i will tell and explain this to anyone who wants to know . And we’ll see how you feel  )

Oh , and you know , commenting on mean stuff with a smiley face is idiotic even for you . And by doing this , people i have suceeded in blowing her sweet and innocent cover , AFTER A WHOLE YEAR . I BRING YOU THE TRUTH . And i have to thank you , for it would not have been possible , well , now that its all out in the open , you probably wanna kill me or something . I told you , i will fucking crush your mircomini brains before you try . Not small , not tiny BUT MIRCOMINI

18 November

Try me . I will fucking crush you like the worthless little piece of shit you are , and you , YOU cant do a fuck about it . Suck . it . all . up . bitch _|_ You know you’re trash .

To people that read this space : there’s only one person on your mind when you read this . And you know who

17 November 2009

My new aim in life is to get a Billion Euros before 2012 so i can get a seat on the funny ship-plane looking thing .

1 x 2.06 = 2.06 Billion Spore dollars :O HOLY SHIT ( now thats something demoralising )

Just got back from watching 2010 with Norman and Kenneth . It was nice , after the movie all i saw in my mind was bulidings collapsing and cars falling beneath the cracks of the earth . My imagination goes off the charts sometimes . Thats why i dont like watching ghost movies . I swear sometimes after the movie and when im alone at home , it feels as though im in the movie _|_ No shit . I know its something you grow out of eventually , but i haveeeeenttt okayyyy ~ So back offfffff .

2012’s a pretty good movie ! Although it kinda makes you wonder and think about whats gonna happen after the world ends and all , and if its really gonna happen , but if it is , im kinda eggcited . We get to see the world end . Love the ’ today , we are not strangers , we are one , and we will all step into the darkness together ’ quote from the movie <3 Anyway dont take my word for it , GO CATCH IT

’ Now showing in cinemas near you ’ * ( very deep male voice ) HAHAHHA . NIGHT GUYS (; MORE PICTURES SOON . WILL GET MY DSLR BEFORE I LEAVE FOR SHANGHAI . SO MORE PICTURES AFTER THAT TOO <3

17 November 2009

I am so tirrrrrreeed ~

Went to Sebas’s place in the morning before heading to WS to get my hair done yesterday Bought lunch and went back to his place to have it , Sebas’smum helped me with my makeup and she fetched the three of us down to school . Prom was Rubbish yesterday , the bands sucked and there was only one dance group ): The food was bullshit the breaded garoupa tasted like mircowaved fish fingers . We had to sit through every class’s slideshow presentation . Total Drag , took pictures , walked about .

After Prom daryl joel sebas and i took a cab to Boat quay to have a proper dinner and a drink at EskiBar . Had quite alot of fun , and sebas was the happiest ive ever seen him on the cab ride back home . Totally laughing his ass off . Wtf . Think he was wasted after one cup . But , it was good . Went to sebas’s house played with Belle .

Sorry for being so Anal yesterday guys . Guess i wasnt thinking straight . Quite a Fucked up night after the whole thing for me yesterday . 

Im seriously fucking under alot of stress now . CCB , wish people would be more fucking understanding sometimes . MF . Doesnt help that my family’s effing dysfunctional now . The period after O’s was supposed to be fun , how the F is that supposed to happen when i return back this shit hole everyday .

15 November 2009

How does spending 1k for Prom in school sound ?

15 November 2009

Alright , Prom’s tommorow and i think ive gotten everything i need . CANT WAIT . Actually , i think its gonna be a real drag :/ Esp the graduation ceremony . Bloody Daryl’s betting that i will fall on stage tommorow _|_ ass hole

Yesterday , i went out with my mum ,aunt and grandmother to Ion to look for my dress . Got a pair of Aldo shoes . Will post pictures of it tommorow after prom ! There’s like only 6 of em in spore ! Soooo , i think it was really worth it :D

Couldnt find a decent dress cause they were either too loud , too much for prom in school or fugly :/ Hope i’ll take lots of pictures tommorow . Will promise to post an update on prom .

Met Larlene , vivien and weiting in the afternoon , ITS BEEN AGES SINCE WE HUNG OUT AND I JUST HAD TO BE VERY ANAL AND IRRITATING ! HAHAH . We went shopping and we had Dinner with Yessy , after dinner they came to my house , played Wii , watched Pink panther and G.I joe . I SINCERELY APOLOGISE GUYS . I WAS VERY VERY VERY TIRED . I KNOW YOU GUYS WERE TOO . I AM SO VERY SORRY ): I would have mass msged but , as you know . I still dont have a phone , and my mum doesnt want to get it yet ( SIGH )

Went to Vivo this afternoon with my mum and i got a realllyyyy coolll blazer for tommorow from zara :D

Btw , im leaving for Shanghai on the 3rd . I’ll be gone for only a week (; PROMISE TO POST LOTS IF I CAN USE MY UNCLE’S COMPUTER THERE .

VERY EGGCITED FOR THE UPCOMING ACTIVITIES ! stayyyy tunnnneeddd

14 November 2009

Its been Two whole days Hanging out with Daryl and Sebas , we went to look for clothes for the prom . YES . We’re going to Prom ( SIGHZ ) On the first day we took a cab down to Taka and eyed clothes . Went back to Sebas’s place at night , Played Ben10 on Wii , Played with Belle and talked to Aunty Irene ( sebas’s mum )

Yesterday Sebas’s mum brought us out to hunt and get our prom clothes and shoes , she fetched us to Haji lane to have lunch first . I had Cold meatballs with Red beet . Very weird . HAHA , BUT NAICE . We had a spoiler for the whole day which was kill joy and everyone felt pissed off , BUT we still had fun . Went down to Town and sebas got his shoes , walked around cine and we went back to Sebas’s for Guitar hero and Belleeee :D heheh

BTW . Sebas brought us down to get a cab in his UNDERWEAR . SUPER TIGHT UNDERWEAR . AND DARYL . MFKING DARYL PEE-ED ON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD . WTH . THEY HAVE NO SHAME WHATSOEVER I SWEAR .

Okay , and today im gonna get my shoes and dresses with my mum at Ion . Bloodyhell , i cant believe im actually buying things for prom and actually going to prom and actually spending so much on prom _|_

OH ! IM MEETING TWT , CHEWZ AND QUEK LATER :D <3 SEE YA GUYS IN TOWN LATER

P.s havent gotten my phone YET .